Purple Rain's space

dog days get so long

lixx0277 — Fri, 30 Sep 2011 12:41:15 +0000

Though I heard some wise man say
That every dog will have his day
He never mentioned that these dog days get so long

And I’ve been waiting in the weeds
Waiting for the summer rain to fall upon the
Wild birds scattering the seeds
Answering the calling of the tide’s eternal tune
The phases of the moon
The chambers of the heart
The egg and dart of small gray
Spiders spinning in the dark
In spite of all the times the web is torn apart

And I’ve been waiting in the weeds
Waiting for the time to come around again and
Hope is floating on the breeze
Carrying my soul high up above the ground and
I’ve been keeping to myself
Knowing that the seasons are slowly changing
Even though you’re with somebody else
He’ll never love you like I do

Sept. 25

lixx0277 — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 15:06:35 +0000

Sunday, 7:30 am, office.

I didn’t get up until noon yesterday. With a party coming up later in the day, the plan of going to work went out of the window. And then last night I dreamed of my co-author, pressing me for more sas results. The outcome then was I getting out of bed at 6:30 am on a Sunday morning.

The party I went on Saturday was a celebration of mid-autumn holiday, organized by the Chinese students assosication at SMU and UTSW. The strong impression I got was that it seemed like a lot of work for the organizers and participants. Some friends teased me that I could become a sponsor for a contribution as little as $200. That actually gave me some idea. It seemed like an ancient time when I offered any community service — last time was when I served at the students’ committee in college. I would like to help out in activities like that.

流水帐—7.25

lixx0277 — Mon, 25 Jul 2011 21:39:04 +0000

周一，开始了与sas同乐的日子。等程序的时候，我翻出赵薇版的第二部来当冷笑话看。时不时让人捧腹。偶而也让人身上一阵寒意，也有防暑的功效。
正是芒果台“还珠之燕子翩翩”新鲜出炉的时候，我也忍不住看了两眼。虽然不过一两分钟的事，也足以让赵薇版变得可以忍受。

Happy Birthday!

lixx0277 — Mon, 18 Jul 2011 19:42:43 +0000

I had a blast! Once again I was reminded of what a lucky person I am. I am so grateful for all the wonderful and thoughtful people in my life.
And for the first time I thanked Facebook: in satisfying my sense of narcissism, it openly displayed the popularity I enjoy among friends.
I wish I could have 36 hours on my birthday.

Falling in _ by Lifehouse

lixx0277 — Fri, 24 Jun 2011 15:05:01 +0000

Listening to the song while I was driving to work. Couldn’t help but keep replaying it. The opening vocal was just beautiful. I think to myself, it’s been four years since we live apart. Four years. How did I get though? Especially after getting the house, after having Bonnie living with me? Not that I didn’t think of breaking up the relationship. I did, many many times. Somehow we are still together and the bond just gets stronger. What yet to happen is still uncertain (well, what on earth is certain?), and I still worry from time to time. But I decided not to worry about the future but enjoy what I have every single moment. I have always wished that I could be more brave. I’m glad I am making progress.

Everytime I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don’t be scared, it’s only love
Baby, that we’re falling in

I can’t wait to tomorrow
This feeling has swallowed me whole
And know that I’ve lost control
This heart that I’ve followed
Has left me so hollow
That was then, this is now,
yeah you have changed everything

Everytime I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don’t be scared, it’s only love
That we’re falling in
I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don’t look down, it’s only love
Baby, that we’re falling in

I’m standing in your driveway
It’s midnight and I’m sideways
To find out if you feel the same
Won’t be easy, have my doubts too
But it’s over, without you I’m just lost, incomplete
Yeah you feel like home, home to me

All those nights I stayed away
Thinking of all the ways to make you mine
All of those smiles will never fade
Never run out of ways to blow my mind

Endless work

lixx0277 — Thu, 23 Jun 2011 04:44:23 +0000

Endless work. But since I can’t see the end to it, there seems to be no reason for me to hurry.
Find a old acquaintance through google. (http://www.ece.ufl.edu/people/faculty/yang.html)
She is an alumni of HUST and a friend of my sister’s at UMN. She and I took the “Multivariate Statistics ” class together for a semester. I remember her being quietly confident.
She is really doing very well with her career. Hurray!
( I start to miss my girlfriends from the PH.D program. I find myself having a strong bias in favor of strong, smart, and funny women. )

Life has been good to me

lixx0277 — Tue, 14 Jun 2011 05:01:21 +0000

After making wrongs turns and getting hit bottom down, I am living the spring of my life! I am so grateful for the support by my family and dearest friends at difficult times. And I am fortunate to continue making good friends who have added so much in my life.
Life is hard, but is worth it.

Be kind

lixx0277 — Fri, 20 May 2011 20:18:28 +0000

I happen to read a book called “what we can learn from dogs”. One line draws my attention: Being kind is more important than being important.

I have always been blessed with friendship. I deeply cherish my friends and feel very lucky that my friends seem to like me as well. Sometimes I think if I have to choose only one quality out of me, then “being kind& genuine” would be the quality I value most and I’d hope my friends love me for that.

Last evening a friend kindly advised me not to trust people too soon. He warned me that sometimes I could be taken advantage if I am not careful with what I say. (He didn’t believe that I have worked as a provincial government officer (gong wu yuan) in China for two years, because I sometimes seem to be as simple-minded as a college student.) I appreciate his sincerity and have given his comments some thoughts. He was not the first one to offer such advice. Other people, particularly my parents made similar observation of me in the past. Looking back, I remember times when I doubted my judgment and tried to put up a thicker wall around myself. But as I get older, I realize there are certain things one just cannot quit. I cannot force myself to be someone I am not. However, being able to protect and take care of oneself is indeed vital. Thankfully, after going through some self-brought upon trouble, sometimes even getting myself heartbroken, I have become wiser and stronger. I watched many TV court drama series lately. “Give someone the benefit of doubt” is an often-used expression when someone being gulity is in question. I suddenly thought, maybe we all should give others the benefit of doubt before there is evidence suggesting otherwise.

Update

lixx0277 — Fri, 20 May 2011 16:12:46 +0000

周六下午，办公室。不过才来了两个多小时，正经工作不过一小时，困意已经潮水般地漫过了全身。拼了所有的力气，也就勉强把眼皮撑着。( I wrote opeing on April 23rd, hoping I can come back and finish the post. Compeletly forgot. Now I don’t even know what I planed to say in the post. In a way, that is typical state of mind for me lately.)

Pretty Girl, Wise words

lixx0277 — Sun, 20 Mar 2011 18:39:05 +0000

I came across a friend’s Facebook page. (http://www.facebook.com/cheng.feng1)

I don’t know this girl, but I like her at first sight of her picture — it was the warmth and purity in her eyes that make her the most beautiful girl. Then I found this photo recording her thoughts inspired by a small coastal town in China (GU LANG YU, Xiamen).

“希望自己和我的生活也可以朝着某个方向走－－拥有思想的自由，内心的宁静，爱的温暖，自我的价值。” ( I wish my life will head on a road leading to the freedom of thinking, serenity of mind, warmth of love, and self-worthiness. )

Everyone was born with different endowment and traits, but this portraits a path of life that leading to ultimate happiness that is available to everyone.